You know that odd little life fact that means the more you look forward to a party the less you enjoy it, while the event that just happens is fantastic? I think it's anti-climax or maybe our brains just max out. You psyched yourself up for your talk, did all the prep, delivered brilliantly and then... splat!
It is partly the tension snappin more…
I haven't visited for a while: laziness and a bit of minor illness and being tired.
You sound much better and I am glad of that. You know, we all have to rely on other people in some ways and it is no failing on your part to need your family. I hope you have told them everything because it would make many things clear for them.
I'm not more…
This all sounds like progress. I am so glad you have found a chink of light. Once you mentioned what had happened to you I just knew it was at the root of everything - and then another attack seemed to spark a crisis. How could it not? Nobody could have these experiences and walk away scot free. I know we'd all react differently but we'd certainly more…
The thing that mystifies me is why no connection is made between what happened to you and the way you are. I wasn't sure if you told anybody about the assault. I rather gathered that you may have been intimidated out of it and, if that's the case, it seems to me that the people caring for you should be more observant and try to assess whether thing more…
Mostly it seems you are doing brilliantly. Your degree and interactions at university, the (not inconsiderable) achievement of finding some new clothes you like and your anticipation about your weekend.
Presentations are horrible so it is good that you pulled that off well. I bet you felt some euphoria when it was over! Well done on that. more…
Sorry to hear about the situation at University. Are there any social groups you can join or is that what you are already talking about? I just wonder if it might be easier to make contact in something like a film club or book reading group. Somehow I suspect everyone feels like you do. more…
We live in a council flat. One of the perks is that you dont pay for any maintenance issues whether its your windows, toilet, boiler, leaky roof ... but the negative is very similar to yours ... the maintenance contract people tend to bodge job things temporarily, only for them to break again more…
Oh Sian, I am so sorry that you have hit the wall like that. The strange thing is that you still sound more constructive than you used to do. I'm glad to hear that you have access to this group who can help you at home: it must be better to be in your own surroundings.
About your therapist - I'm a believer in expressing positive feelings beca more…
Hello, Sian. I was rather worried about you when I got back on the computer and found that you have not been around. In some ways I am glad that you were not posting when I was not here to respond because, although I am a stranger, it might have mattered if you thought I was suddenly uninterested. Plainly it wouldn't have had the significance of a more…
Hello there, Sian. I haven't been around much lately because of losing my mum and the followup from that plus a couple of health problems of my own but decided on a quick visit tonight. You haven't posted again so I am attaching a second reply here. I just wanted to say that I hope you are doing OK and that your move went well. If all went as plann more…
I just found that you had posted and am having a quick read before going home. I'm glad you sound so good (because you do, actually.) And, yes, Homebase for arguments.... Not nearly as bad as Ikea though; my friend almost had a breakdown in there with the difficulty of it. She was still shaking on the Monday after her Saturday visit.
I think more…
You sound very very busy and a LOT more positive. Good luck with the move. It is always stressful, for anyone. Glad you got help. I feel that sometimes I have been looked after. I had a bad year last year but this year it is so much beter because of it. I am in a safer position job wise, healthier and happier. OUt of all this will come somehing mor more…
Thank you for your kind words, they mean such a lot to me.
I have decided to move, will post about it all later but a pro's and con's list helped a lot, good suggestion!
You don't lecture me at all, I am still surprised people are reading and commenting on what I say - you are so kind.
All good wishes and much love,
S more…
Sweetie haven't been around for a while.Lots of crap going down here too. But seem to be coming out of the tunnel or so it seems. You are in control liek ann said. Your control is yes or no. but that is more than I had in this last move I had to make if you feel like talking PM me more…
dear Sian. LIfe is so horribly full of nasty bits. I'm sorry I haven't been around to add my words of support. Not that words change much or help much but they are there to read and to give a crumb of comfort.
I can be an anxious person myself and I have noticed that I make it worse by seeing all my problems in one lump and thus they look li more…
You are very upset at the moment and can't see the wood for the trees. My friend has been where you are now, and has come out the other side. There is hope. Make that your mantra. more…
Hello there, Sian. Despite what you say it sounds as if you are doing well. I'm sorry I have not been around much for me, please don't think I have forgotten you. Getting in ahead of your course sounds like a good idea for its own sake and because it's good to have a plan.
I don't think you can blame yourself for your use of A+E. After all we more…
Welcome back, I have been away quite a lot so miss lots of posts, so just catching up.
Now there you go , beating up yourself again.
Sometimes we all have to have help and being the sort of person who values your independence, you are fighting it. Don't feel bad, just make up for the kindness of others by returning it in l more…
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In response to: "A quiet afternoon ..." 184 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
I'm a day or so early I know but I want to maximise the chance of your getting this around the right time...
Happy Birthday, Sian!!!
Don't think of it as unlikely. Believe!
Still hoping for you....
Love
Ann more…
In response to: "Warning: Drunken ramble ..." 563 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
You know that odd little life fact that means the more you look forward to a party the less you enjoy it, while the event that just happens is fantastic? I think it's anti-climax or maybe our brains just max out. You psyched yourself up for your talk, did all the prep, delivered brilliantly and then... splat!
It is partly the tension snappin more…
In response to: "A quiet afternoon ..." 567 days old
by Basketcase [Member]
Thank you. Can't believe you care so much. Time for another boring installment!!!! X more…
In response to: "A quiet afternoon ..." 567 days old
by Basketcase [Member]
Not sure yet, I am just writing whatever is in my head!!! I don't expect an audience ... just something to do for now! more…
In response to: "A quiet afternoon ..." 572 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
I haven't visited for a while: laziness and a bit of minor illness and being tired.
You sound much better and I am glad of that. You know, we all have to rely on other people in some ways and it is no failing on your part to need your family. I hope you have told them everything because it would make many things clear for them.
I'm not more…
In response to: "A quiet afternoon ..." 582 days old
by Emsbabee Pro
What is your book about? more…
In response to: "Calmer now " 589 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
This all sounds like progress. I am so glad you have found a chink of light. Once you mentioned what had happened to you I just knew it was at the root of everything - and then another attack seemed to spark a crisis. How could it not? Nobody could have these experiences and walk away scot free. I know we'd all react differently but we'd certainly more…
In response to: "Calmer now " 591 days old
by loveslifeloveschocolate [Member]
Its good to cry, glad you found some help. Remember, small steps are the best ones {{{{hugs)))) more…
In response to: "Crisis, what crisis?" 600 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
The thing that mystifies me is why no connection is made between what happened to you and the way you are. I wasn't sure if you told anybody about the assault. I rather gathered that you may have been intimidated out of it and, if that's the case, it seems to me that the people caring for you should be more observant and try to assess whether thing more…
In response to: "Crisis, what crisis?" 600 days old
by loveslifeloveschocolate [Member]
Sounds a lot like my friends experience. She only got help when she really narly did kill herself and then it only lasted for two weeks.
FOcus on the future it will get better, eventually. more…
In response to: "What happenned to February?" 612 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Mostly it seems you are doing brilliantly. Your degree and interactions at university, the (not inconsiderable) achievement of finding some new clothes you like and your anticipation about your weekend.
Presentations are horrible so it is good that you pulled that off well. I bet you felt some euphoria when it was over! Well done on that.
more…
In response to: "What happenned to February?" 614 days old
by Emsbabee Pro
Sounds like you're doing really, really well. x more…
In response to: "Waiting around ..." 616 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Hi Sian... have only just caught your post.
Sorry to hear about the situation at University. Are there any social groups you can join or is that what you are already talking about? I just wonder if it might be easier to make contact in something like a film club or book reading group. Somehow I suspect everyone feels like you do.
more…
In response to: "Waiting around ..." 623 days old
by loveslifeloveschocolate [Member]
Keep plodding on Basket. Glad the crisis team was good, shame you can't have more regular input when you are unwell. more…
In response to: "Waiting around ..." 624 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Toilet is fixed "for now" or permanently ?
We live in a council flat. One of the perks is that you dont pay for any maintenance issues whether its your windows, toilet, boiler, leaky roof ... but the negative is very similar to yours ... the maintenance contract people tend to bodge job things temporarily, only for them to break again more…
In response to: "Struggling a bit ..." 631 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Oh Sian, I am so sorry that you have hit the wall like that. The strange thing is that you still sound more constructive than you used to do. I'm glad to hear that you have access to this group who can help you at home: it must be better to be in your own surroundings.
About your therapist - I'm a believer in expressing positive feelings beca more…
In response to: "Back again!" 641 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Hello, Sian. I was rather worried about you when I got back on the computer and found that you have not been around. In some ways I am glad that you were not posting when I was not here to respond because, although I am a stranger, it might have mattered if you thought I was suddenly uninterested. Plainly it wouldn't have had the significance of a more…
In response to: "Back again!" 645 days old
by rithompson [Member]
Good to hear that you are doing okay. :) more…
In response to: "Decision made!" 687 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Hello there, Sian. I haven't been around much lately because of losing my mum and the followup from that plus a couple of health problems of my own but decided on a quick visit tonight. You haven't posted again so I am attaching a second reply here. I just wanted to say that I hope you are doing OK and that your move went well. If all went as plann more…
In response to: "Decision made!" 713 days old
by rithompson [Member]
You've got your own flat, well done you! Hope the move goes well! :yes: more…
In response to: "Decision made!" 714 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
I just found that you had posted and am having a quick read before going home. I'm glad you sound so good (because you do, actually.) And, yes, Homebase for arguments.... Not nearly as bad as Ikea though; my friend almost had a breakdown in there with the difficulty of it. She was still shaking on the Monday after her Saturday visit.
I think more…
In response to: "Decision made!" 714 days old
by loveslifeloveschocolate [Member]
You sound very very busy and a LOT more positive. Good luck with the move. It is always stressful, for anyone. Glad you got help. I feel that sometimes I have been looked after. I had a bad year last year but this year it is so much beter because of it. I am in a safer position job wise, healthier and happier. OUt of all this will come somehing mor more…
In response to: "Moving news ..." 715 days old
by Basketcase [Member]
Thank you.
I hope that things improve for you at the moment. Will be praying for you and your family.
Thinking of you.
Lvoe,
SianX more…
In response to: "Moving news ..." 715 days old
by Basketcase [Member]
Thank you for your kind words, they mean such a lot to me.
I have decided to move, will post about it all later but a pro's and con's list helped a lot, good suggestion!
You don't lecture me at all, I am still surprised people are reading and commenting on what I say - you are so kind.
All good wishes and much love,
S more…
In response to: "Moving news ..." 715 days old
by Basketcase [Member]
Thank you. Seems to come and go in waves. Means so much that people are interested in my life.
Hope you're doing ok.
Love,
SianX more…
In response to: "Moving news ..." 719 days old
by freeasthewind [Member]
Sweetie haven't been around for a while.Lots of crap going down here too. But seem to be coming out of the tunnel or so it seems. You are in control liek ann said. Your control is yes or no. but that is more than I had in this last move I had to make if you feel like talking PM me more…
In response to: "Moving news ..." 721 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
dear Sian. LIfe is so horribly full of nasty bits. I'm sorry I haven't been around to add my words of support. Not that words change much or help much but they are there to read and to give a crumb of comfort.
I can be an anxious person myself and I have noticed that I make it worse by seeing all my problems in one lump and thus they look li more…
In response to: "Moving news ..." 725 days old
by loveslifeloveschocolate [Member]
You are very upset at the moment and can't see the wood for the trees. My friend has been where you are now, and has come out the other side. There is hope. Make that your mantra. more…
In response to: "A row on the cards, again ..." 738 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Hello there, Sian. Despite what you say it sounds as if you are doing well. I'm sorry I have not been around much for me, please don't think I have forgotten you. Getting in ahead of your course sounds like a good idea for its own sake and because it's good to have a plan.
I don't think you can blame yourself for your use of A+E. After all we more…
In response to: "A row on the cards, again ..." 742 days old
by loveslifeloveschocolate [Member]
Welcome back, I have been away quite a lot so miss lots of posts, so just catching up.
Now there you go , beating up yourself again.
Sometimes we all have to have help and being the sort of person who values your independence, you are fighting it. Don't feel bad, just make up for the kindness of others by returning it in l more…